today

Do you have those days where you are overwhelmed and underwhelmed at the same time? Its starts with a morning where you intend on getting up early, but when your alarm goes off you just lie in bed for an hour staring at the ceiling, not able to move. You're not sleepy necessarily, you just can't will your body to move from its spot amongst the sheets. You might cast about, looking at the messy pile of clothes heaped in a chair or an unfinished project, another reason not to face the day. You finally do get up when lying there for any longer seems too pathetic, and you stumble to the shower. After the motions of getting dressed and ready, you head out, face the day and think, "its going to get better." But whatever kept you in bed that first hour is still holding onto your thoughts as you start your car and drive away...
All day you slowly check things off your list as you do them without passion, without energy. You are overwhelmed by all the remaining things that need to be done, by how supremely busy your life is, and yet you are tired of it all. The things that sound fun, the things that are fun, the things that are familiar and even the ones that aren't , they all sound terrible and you wish you could just escape...

its one of those days